A Happy Ending Despite Miscarriage Fears
Guest Posting By Rachel Blythe
On April 9, 2012, just 11 days after I ovulated, I took a pregnancy test. To my surprise, I saw the faintest of lines. I was ecstatic, yet I was terrified, as I had been pregnant just a few months before but that pregnancy ended in miscarriage.
The very next day, I had some spotting, and I feared that I was once again losing my baby. I called my OBGYN and was told that I could be experiencing implantation bleeding. Because I had miscarried previously, they wanted me to get a quantitate pregnancy test. The bleeding continued, and I went to the hospital on the following day, got my blood drawn, and received the results later that evening.
“Your test came back at an 11. This is quite low. A 10 is considered to be a negative test.”
I, of course, had no idea what this meant.
“Since you are bleeding, you are probably experiencing a very early miscarriage, but we want you to get tested again in 48 hours to see if your numbers have doubled.”
After 48 hours, I went to the hospital again to get my blood redrawn. Once again, a nurse called me that evening to give me my results.
“Your test came back at a 44.”
“That’s good, right? You said it needed to double.”
“Technically, yes, that is good, but given the date of your last period, we would expect your number to be much higher at this point. It’s still possible that you could miscarry.”
I was scheduled for a 6 week checkup at which point I would get my first ultrasound. I was told to notify them if the bleeding increased.
When I was about 5 weeks pregnant, the bleeding significantly increased. I called my OBGYN, told them the bleeding was increasing, and they sent me to the hospital for an emergency ultrasound.
The ultrasound revealed a visible sac but no fetal pole, which I was told was normal given my current state of pregnancy. In short, they couldn’t tell me whether I was losing the baby or not. They scheduled my next ultrasound for 8 weeks, and until then, all I could do was wait.
I continued to bleed for a few more weeks, and we were never sure if I was miscarrying again or if I was bleeding for some other unknown reason. I stopped bleeding a few days before my 8 week appointment and at that appointment, my husband and I heard the baby’s heartbeat for the first time. I finally felt like I was able to breathe a small sigh of relief. While reassuring, I was still terrified of losing my baby, and I obsessively counted the weeks and was afraid to get “too comfortable” with the idea of being pregnant.
Despite all my fears, my beautiful son was born on December 28, 2012, and 16 months later, I still wonder what I ever did to deserve him.
Three pregnancy tips:
- You hear it all the time, but every pregnancy really is different.
- The heartburn, the sleepless nights, the back pain…it’s all worth it in the end.
- Drink lots of water, rest, and treat your body well. It’s amazing what it will do for you while you’re in labor.